Just Another Day..

today was just one of those days when the realisation hits you..the realisation that the world is not meant for someone like you. you are just not cut out in the mould. i stand here lost in a crowd of myself, alone. all i have for company is confusion . this is all i can offer you today, tommorow or whenever, confusion. please dont hurt me, dont confront me with my failures, i know i screwed up, i have not forgotten.
i stand here with an empty head waiting for something to hit, i dont think know what it is. i stand here and see the people aound me., so merry , so gay ,engrossed in their vulgar mirth. cant they see? cant they think? why ?
its just one of those days when death sneeks up on you like a cat sneeks up on a blind mouse. the mouse can feel the warm breath of the cat at the back of its neck. its helpless . and then the cat whispers gently into its ears 'the end is near'.
the terror of death sometimes amazes me . people fear death even more than pain. life hurts much more than death, at the point of death, its all over, you are free from pain, you are free to fly,you are free.